The soundtrack of my life

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I felt compelled to write something about the passing of Gord Downie here. I have never felt sorrow before upon the passing of a public icon but with Gord I definitely felt as though I lost someone close to me. It hurt to hear the news of his death this morning. I have so many memories wrapped up in experiences experiencing the music of the Tragically Hip. It reminds me of lazy summer days at my godfather’s cottage on Stoney Lake in Ontario, biking from Ottawa to Meech lake to swim, coming of age and buying beer at the depanneur in Hull, crossing the country with my parents and bringing my own young family across this beautiful land. Not to mention, The Hip feature as the background music to my university career,athletic pursuits and travels. The lyrics Gord sang inspired my curiosity about the stories and figures that have shaped Canada. The live performances I attended were great Canadian sing alongs with an incredible feeling of connection to the band and the people around you in that moment. The Tragically Hip’s music spoke to me and Gord Downie inspired me recently to explore my own personal writing and to share and work harder toward a better, more equitable society. Listening to his weaving of words, sharing of ideas and embodying of history will continue to shape us.

I played his music today for my children and my students and I listened to Gord excerpts on the CBC driving to and from work. He spoke about honouring his art, his poetry as he produced it, and not tinkering to much, so that it embodied the thought and place and experience it was coming from. Honouring it’s raw beauty. It is beautiful.

I wrote a poem recently, that I finished last night. I was tinkering a little more after I took a picture of storm clouds contrasting a brightly sunlit park in the late evening yesterday as it was partially inspired by that time of day. As I went to drop my boys off at daycare this morning I was listening to Ahead by a Century and the sky was bright. I took a picture as I listened to Gord on the radio and this moment spoke to me and I felt like he said “you’re done” I feel now that this poem is done today, that it’s as good as it needs to be and that somehow he told me that and that somehow I can send him off. I am including my poem below to say Thank you, Gord.

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Twilight

 

The last light is holding you in its palm

Casting shadows on the noise

Slowing for the lullaby so near

When the darkness redeploys

 

The silence of the still of night

Is something worth listening to

Embracing starry skies surround

Slowly it envelops you

 

With the starkly darkened landscape

Shimmering lights are there to see

If you move without a song

Will the silence set you free?

 

So carry on to the deeper calm

What are you searching for indeed?

They call forth and pull you north

What is it that you need?

 

Maybe just the moving forward

Looking back from whence you came

The dark and light contrasting

Will leave you not the same

 

One thing is sure uncertainty

As you wander paths alone

The iridescent solitude

Is not something to bemoan

 

So let the cloak embrace you

Before the bird song meets its death

The changing light upon you

Enjoy its dying breath

Our place?

I have been wondering recently about how to connect students to the places (environments/communities) that surround them on an ongoing and purposeful basis. I have questions about what would be the most meaningful type(s) of connection to the places that shape the lives in a relatively small rural elementary school. I think it is important that students engage in outdoor experiential learning and I believe that these activities are accessible to our students through school district facilities and opportunities but I am hoping to see change from the one off experience to the ongoing experience of the natural world and community that supports us. I think these questions are both logistical and philosophical. How do we get beyond the playground? (We can’t just walk down the road here) What are the meaningful places to which we return, explore and connect with? And why?

As student lives and learning take shape in their classrooms, I believe this is the starting point. What are the students and teacher connected to? What are they inquiring about? What big questions are being wrestled with that could be supported by getting out into the world on an ongoing basis? And, what are the ongoing connections that could or should be built?

As I see students explore places on the school grounds, guided by their teachers, to raise their attention to the environment in which they live, I am compelled to ask: “How can I support the broadening and deepening of these learning opportunities?” My inclination and experience is that having the conversation pushes the door open and moves wondering to action.

The Roxham Rd.

border-03jpg.jpg.size.custom.crop.1086x722Who are they?

Where are they?

Where should they be?

Where could they be?

Why are they here?

Why are they there?

What choices do they have?

What choices do I?

What choices do we?

What is my responsibility?

What is ours?

What time do I have?

Do I have enough?

What do I need to hear?

What do I need to see?

How should I feel?

Do I feel enough?

Do I know them?

Are they my family?

Are they yours?

Where do I begin?

Should I even start?

Am I angry?

Am I sad?

What power do I have?

What action can I take?

Must I take action?

What action must I take?

Do I have hope?

What is my hope?

Do they have hope?

What is their hope?

Who are they?

Who am I?

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Service with a smile!

I have had many different jobs through the years, many. A good number of these were in retail services and in each of the experiences I have gained some skills and know-how that has served me along the way. Whether it’s folding shirts effectively, choosing a ripe mango, or waxing skis, each of these opportunities has left something with me. The thing that sticks out most prominently is the fact that in all of these customer service oriented enterprises great importance was given by management and in the culture of the organization that an acknowledgement of a customer and a smile to go along with that acknowledgement are crucial. There were policies around the time frame of greeting. Walmart employs people as greeters! There is something to it. That something is the establishment of a positive connection. You feel welcomed, you feel cared about, you spend your money. Simple.

This approach holds true in education as well. Now, to be sure, I am not equating students to customers. Students need far more to learn than a potential customer might need to purchase. But, that greeting, that welcoming, that acknowledgement, that smile is crucial for students. Each and every child that enters a school or classroom needs to hear and see and feel welcomed and acknowledged as they arrive. As they are encountered in a building, it is imperative for principals, teachers, educational assistants to make this happen. That smile, with a hello, with a how are you, is the start of everything. Knowing that not one, but all the adults in a school care about them is how each and every child should understand their experience in school.

They may not be buying something but they’ll be buying in.

Cwelelep

The title of the included poem recording is Cwelelep. I learned this word from Judy Halbert and Linda Kaser’s book, Spirals of Inquiry for Equity and Quality. The word, from the Lil’wat language “suggests being in a place of dissonance and uncertainty in anticipation of new learning.” As a Vancouver Island University MEd student under their tutelage this word arose a number of times and makes sense to me as the experience of education. The poem is a reflection on my own and my school’s inquiry work and experience of the previous year. It was written in June 2017. I hope you may find something meaningful in it.

 

I am trying out including some audio on my blog and also daring greatly with the spoken word recording. The text of the poem is below.

 

To find a vision and build learners

It takes stretch, for thoughtful, dedicated practitioners

The opportunity for this viscosity

Presented itself with intellectual curiosity

 

The doors were open and the new and old

The purpose, dare to be bold

Brought an energy and search for clarity

To a goal including viewpoint disparity

 

Looking to harness the enthusiasm from the start

Contemplating the possibilities of limitless art

We looked upon the vast landscape of edu-theory

Imaginative ideas and pushing out the dreary

 

Lots to do, flip through, see and to explore

This spinning wheel of inquiry to underscore

Growth Mindset, universal design, AFL and the spiral, the spiral

What would become the work of the year’s arrival

 

How to chop it down, what to look for so efforts aren’t in vain

Jumping on board the scanning train

How to organize, develop and synthesize

A locomotive at your platform does materialize

 

What is going on for these guys?

Let’s show them limitless skies

But what do they need and what do we

I’ve got a hunch, so let’s see

 

This school is growing and pushing out the walls

Nothing but vibrant and crowded halls

The abundant energy causing difficulty

Up and down on branches of the self-regulation tree

 

What do we see?

Not knowing how to make a choice or three

Or four or more, that let them walk through the door

And set themselves, to the business of more

 

Choices and voices in spades

Decisions have to be made

How do we be, socially, emotionally

Creating conditions focally

 

Let’s step in and see what difference we can make

What structure for them to co-regulate

Adjusting schedules and flipping breaks around

Being with, so understanding can be found

 

And as our focus hones in on the structures we provide

Collaboration and Wonder Wednesday coincide

The ball is rolling around the spiral

I think this change might go viral

 

The best laid plans to fruition

Encouraging growing ambition

Impact from collective discussion of the ways

We were shifting in early days

 

Then BANG, head over boots

Unforseen and shaken to our roots

A little Paisley in the middle gone

How, do we move on

 

A month or more looking through the door

Only seeing, eyes on the floor

Not able to speak the right words, not wanting to see

The broken father before me

 

And still my words have not been spoken

Music in the playground to heal I’m hopin’

The monument to whisper in the ear

Continue on, have no fear

 

 

 

 

So we did and shall keep asking

What are we unmasking

What do these youth now need to help them steer

Knowing, no matter what, I am here

 

This reinforced the building mantra

We would inquire on, with skill like super Contra

SEL and SRL we would investigate

And so, Butler et al, filled our plate

 

And Halbert and Kaser’s work did inspire

To work together through muck and mire

To keep asking the one plus three

Growing trust a priority

 

 

Nurturing a safe space to share

More SRL needs came to bare

Our youngest learners missing skill

Let’s support a bucket fill

 

Where to go, where to find the right fit

Let’s look at the OECD, 7 principles a bit

And the ILE project to inform potential action

The Valby School in Norway, might give us some traction

 

From the ground up inclusion

Early learners together with all, to avoid confusion

The evidence they had, was pupils ready

To transition and be steady

 

So let’s link things together

Strongstart and K/1, with a sharing feather

Wind in the jib to start

Captain and first mate all a part

 

 

 

 

The boat set sail and the storms did quell

Our youngest learners demonstrating SRL

This was a ship floating on inquiry seas

Questions, navigating the breeze

 

What is out there in the oceans of change

Seeking the new no longer strange

Strongstart kids now dictate the terms

They want in where everyone learns

 

A conversing three parties

Back and forth, reconciling priorities

Demands on flexibility, pushing the longevity

A pants-less kinder does add some levity

 

With the wind up, a how do ya do

Were parents as optimistic too

How do we now know where to go

Please don’t refrain, let ideas flow

 

There it was said in resounding fashion

We are thankful, informed and ready for action

Our children are safe to learn and explore

As summer approaches we have a resource store

 

 

This is the lifeblood, the pursuit of change

Move forth in future and find ways to arrange

Learning that benefits the whole community

Weaving together the way to equity

 

So we are left with more to know

And potentially a thousand places to go

What is it again that engages and inspires

Let’s return to that which lights fires

 

 

 

 

Of our students and parents and partners we must ask

In what learning for you is glorious to bask

The locomotive returns with the freight cars of info

Telling us get back, to the land and the people

 

A growing interest in food and our connection

Brings our outdoor classroom a resurrection

It is this life that asks for expansion

What do you want from the creator’s mansion

 

Eyes looking wide to view

What connects you and you

For this school, an ILE act of enormity

The Fiskars model to shape identity

 

In our purview it does stare

John Devereaux and the where

Our place reincarnated

Shaping our space, in effort calculated

 

To the ateliers of agricultures labourers

And to the indigenous wayfarers

The path to follow is before

To understand I must implore

 

Let’s look to the potential of growth mindset

The path still dark, not clear yet

Light may shine through with thoughtful feedback

Our stories’ have potential, as does that of Charlie Wenjack

 

Searching out our whole history

Ways of knowing so we can see

So all the stories that surround us

Deep learning they do encompass

 

The bonds of trust on the journey too

Relationships to see us through

The potential there for many missteps

Gaining comfort with Cwelelep

How bad you want it?

I had a conversation with my brother-in-law Stewart about three weeks ago. He had just completed Ironman Canada in Whistler. He is a relatively seasoned amateur competitor, having completed 6 full distance races since 2008, 3 half Ironman, 1 Olympic triathlon and an 84km Ultra marathon, all while maintaining the rest of his life. He inspired my wife to take on the challenge in 2009 and I can say that it is an huge  effort to do the training for Ironman around your daily business. He placed 21st in his age grade, finishing in a blistering 11hrs 25 mins. This time is doubly impressive as he came off some personal trials this past year, he still managed to shave more than two hours off his last time! Are you impressed? Because I sure am. But back to our conversation… I asked him “What is discipline like to do that?”

My question has layers of other queries: How do you schedule time? How do you focus? How do you keep a growth mindset? How do you prioritize? What happens when it goes wrong? There are many other questions. I was mostly impressed with what great shape he was in as I struggle to gain some fitness balance in my like with three young boys. I think I can do better, just need to be more disciplined somehow. Hence my question.

He thought about my question and then told me a story.

After completing the race he had some tough recovery time, not atypical for these types of events. He worked through the recovery and went to the awards breakfast. He was sitting solo at a table eating when a couple of guys asked to sit with him. They struck up a conversation and shared that one had done the full and the other the half distance. They asked my brother-in-law how he fared. He let them know that he finished in 11:25. They were impressed. They then proceeded to ask about his training regimen, his preparation and his work/race balance. Stewart explained he trained in Kamloops when he wasn’t working at a mine up North. That he doubled his swimming when he was out of camp because of the two in two out schedule. They asked what he did at the mine. Heavy duty mechanic. Jaws dropped and they asked: “And you train up there too?” He explained that he’s up at 4am and in the gym for several hours before his 12 hour shift begins. Yoga before bed and never lights out after 8pm. His breakfast mates continued probing, what about diet? He explained that he’d asked the kitchen staff about healthy options and that they now prepped stuff for him early and made sure he got the best sandwiches. The kitchen staff have invested in his success. That kind of effort is contagious. Stew went on to explain his commute via, car, bus and plane depending on competition and training schedules. The half-ironman competitor who was aspiring to do the full distance stated once more, somewhat incredulously, “And, you did 11:25?” As he did, his friend rose, looked at him and said “How bad you want it?” and they left.

This story captured me because it resonated on many levels personally and professionally. If you want something badly, you have to do the work, day in and day out. There aren’t any shortcuts to hard work and commitment. I think this lesson is one to take to heart in the work of education. Children’s lives and success depend on dedicated practitioners who want it, badly. Not only this, determination and grit to persevere through struggle and adversity are crucial for students to learn and embrace in order to navigate the rocky roads of failure that make learning, learning.

Two weeks later I experienced his determination first hand. My wife and I piloted his safety boat as he completed the Skaha Lake 11.8km Ultra Swim. He finished in 4:21. I found the paddle technically challenging as the winds were strong and the waves white capping through the mid section. I had a sore neck and lower back from the  four and a half hour effort. I didn’t share my complaint. We are very proud of uncle Stewart and it was awesome to see his nieces and nephews give him a hero’s welcome as he crossed the line. Inspirational. So glad my kids could be a part of his effort and success and see what it takes.

 

A people place loop?

The places we know and love, and thrive in, are so important. The smells, sounds and feelings connect us to these places. The place becomes a part of us. It does so because it teaches us something, about the world, about ourselves, about life. These teachings in and of places are so important because they are our roots for learning. And while we go away and find new places, plant new seeds and new roots grow, we can always return to the places of our history. We can find them again physically, spiritually, intellectually, and they grow anew for us and in us.

So, if places are a part of us, are we a part of places?

I believe we leave something of ourselves in our places. We do not only draw on them. We share. We share ourselves with these places that root our lives, that give meaning. Our experience of these places and our stories of them leave an imprint on the places themselves. As our stories intersect other stories and other places they weave together and our place becomes another’s in another way.

In this sense, we exist in a loop where the stories of our lives and the places we are become part of the stories of lives and the places they are.

So we must find places that become us, we must find this deep way to learn and experience and we must help others to this experience and learning.

Mr. Watson

The man was of average height
Grey hair, cropped tight around a cue ball top
He sauntered into his math classes
His eyes intently scanned the room
They couldn’t be ignored

When they had you, you were in lock step
His caring captured you, his energy engaged
The understanding intensity inviting your attentivity
It feels like he’s happy I’m here
So, I’m happy I’m here

His words, actions and open heart
Told us all that this learning was important
As struggles unfolded
He’d appear by your side
A parachute for any freefall out the door

By good chance he was the outdoor ed guy
Advocated for my place when I wouldn’t try
Changed my sense of what learning could be
Should be and would be
From this kind Sir, I was awakened
To possibilities and place for my education


			

The Crib Game

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15 – 2

15 – 4

15 – 6

And a pair for 8

The dreaded skunk line looms

The subtle, embedded smell of cigarette smoke

Will I ever beat him?

Frank J. Henry leaves

To his shop

Victorious again.

Stories are so important. They shape our place, they are our place, they place us.